A Dystopian Odyssey Ch. 2


Ben Nofsker

A Dystopian Odyessey

Chapter 2: Revelations
I sat there dumbfounded at the revelation. He coyly looked at me expecting me to probably blow up on him. “Jayce?” he asked, his voice quivering slightly. I opened my mouth to speak but nothing came out. “You… you okay?” I just blinked, lost in my thoughts.

“I… I’m fine,” I said weakly, still looking dazed and confused. “I… I jus… I just can’t believe that… you!” I said pointing my hands at him when the realization hit me like a ton of bricks. My eyes grew wide and my hands slowly dropped to my sides. “Wait. Who’s the person that you wanted to take with you?”

He grew very quiet and I was about to press the question again when I saw him turn his head away and put his hand on mine. My eyes widened and I momentarily stopped breathing. The room was dead silent except for the faint sound of someone holding back tears.

“Sky?” I asked quietly as to not upset him. “Sky look at me.”

He spun around slowly to face me, his head still glued to the floor.

“Look at me, please,” I begged. It killed me inside to see the tough-as-steel man I’ve adored for such a long time now completely broken. My mind was racing to try and think of SOMETHING to say to him when I blurted out with no thought. “I’m gay.”

He looked at me with complete disbelief. He furrowed his brow and his eyes grew very wide. He opened his mouth to speak, but no words came out, and he shut his mouth, only to nod instead. In the moment of silence between us, I leaned over and gingerly kissed him. His lips were soft and warm. I felt like I was myself for the first time ever. I felt human. As our lips parted, he was immediately stunned at my abrupt action and I took that opportunity to dash out of the room.

I bolted down halls and past classes that were getting out. In a hurry I turned right into the lunch room. Inside there was a big enough crowd, in which, Sky would have a very hard time finding me. I slid past groups of people and slunk into the farthest corner where no one was around. I buried my face into the crevice between my knees and began crying and laughing. Crying tears of joy that I actually had kissed Sky and laughing at the same fact. I must’ve looked like a complete fool when, lo-and-behold, Sky found me. He placed his hand softly on mine, causing me to jump and let out an odd shriek-like noise.

“Jayce,” he said, whispering. “Talk.” He was form with his tone, yet soft at the same time. A mix of signals went through my head, but I allowed him to guide me back to the room we were in only minutes ago. I glued my eyes to the floor as he spoke. “How?” is all he said, both of his hands on my shoulders.

“How what?” he asked confused.

“How come it’s me? How is it you like me?” I asked, my voice weak.

“You’re not like the girls. You’re not like the guys. When I look at you, I- I feel the world makes sense. I feel like I belong. Outside of sports, outside of appearances, when we’re together,” he cupped his hands around my cheeks. “I feel…. words can’t say what I feel. I just know who I love.” His arms snaked around my body and we embraced each other. I could smell his cologne and it made my body go limp. I would have never dreamed that the guy of my dreams actually liked, no loved, me.

I nuzzled my head into the nook of his neck, it felt like an eternity, just standing there in his strong arms. I felt safe. I felt, well, alive. For the first time in such a long time I was able to be myself. I was able to be with someone who I wanted to, without feeling forced. “I… I thought you were straight. I feared that if anyone would know, even my friends, someone would make me disappear, or worse kill me. I didn’t want to tell you because I would rather have lived in torture seeing you everyday than live in regret knowing I told you my secret. I….” I whispered to him then taking a deep breathe, I continued. “I didn’t want to lose you.” He put his thumb on my chin and tilted my head back, so my eyes met his.

“I’ve been crushing over you for years now. I-” he paused to think of the right words. “I was destroyed that I liked you. I didn’t want to like guys. I feared what people would think if they saw me just like, hanging out with you. But it never stopped me from liking you,” Sky said. our eyes still locked on each others.

Days passed where Sky and I met everyday in the “break space,” where we talked and went on dates. It was the only way we could hang out and really get to know each other without anyone getting suspicious that were more than friends. I got to know Sky in a way that I thought I’d never get to and exactly two weeks after we came out to each other, Sky wanted to celebrate.

Sky and I had just sat down in the ‘break space’ when Sky broke the silence by asking, “Why don’t we see a movie together?”

“Are you sure? I- I mean, I would love to, but what about us?” I asked in return. He was confused at what I meant, I could see it on his face. “In public we can’t be together. We’re just Jayce and Sky. We can’t be, well, a couple.” I explained.

“Who ever said we couldn’t be a couple?” I opened my mouth to protest his implication going past me.

“Oh yea! We can go to a drive through movie and still be a couple in the comfort of our car,” I said, a smirk crossing my face. “What’s playing that you want to watch?” We talked for the rest of the period until the bell rang where he and I had to go to our classes. I had Am. History with Mr. Burgess and Sky had to go to AP English with Ms. Kerr. We didn’t share a class until the last period of the day, Trigonometry with Mrs. Peake. That period wouldn’t come fast enough. It was just yesterday that Mrs. Peake changed the seating schedule and Sky and I were now partners. It can’t be coincidence that Sky and I have been getting paired together in classes. Either I am the luckiest man alive or the universe is telling me something….